Get A Load Of This

Back here again?

2011-12-21T00:11:00.004+08:00

And woah...i found this again..unbelievable...its been ages...so many emo shits...that was me last time..and i'm here again to pour some stuffs again to kill my boredom...life isn't as fun as last time...being in poly is an honour but still i guess the suffering still lives...but at a greater scale...social life? Its more to bullshit than ever...but there's still good people around...like my dad used to say, having no friends is sometimes better than having one which destroys your life...true that dad...love life? Well...i don't know what is exactly happening...for some reasons its going up and down...never stable...well you...honestly speaking, i'm into you head over heels...but there's always that jealousy in me that never dies...i want you badly...i can't really express that feelings towards you or write it down anywhere...but i just know that deep down i love you that much...somehow i wish you could change as well...i'm willing to put your past behind...let it be the past...but i'm just plain jealous...i know you're close with guys and all...i can't stop you because its your life...i'm just a friend to you...but each time you go out, or ride with another guy, i just can't help myself having that jealous feeling...i know i should be stopping all that because i'm not your boyfriend...but still...it reminds me of my past and your past...i always get flashbacks or random thoughts you see...its not that i want to but it always happen...i just want to have you...i'm very sincere about my feelings...i want you to be by my side...not to be bothered by any other guys...of course its selfish of me...but i know its how i can take care of you...i know you've been hurt alot...and i wanna stop that...you're like the sweetest i have now and somewhat the only person i have left thats close to my heart apart from my family...somehow you've just turned into someone very precious to me...someone who i wanna keep for life...i want you but i want you to change...i might not be that handsome, good looking, charming, rich or whatever descriptions on your boyfriend-have-to-be list...but i have a heart...thats always ready to love you, take care of you with all that i have...and i hope you would do the same to me...i'm trying my best to not be jealous...and i've not been quitting halfway and letting you go...i've come so far...and i'm still trying...baby, i love you...

Lost

2010-01-08T00:37:00.001+08:00

Face it... She's gone... There's no way that it is possible for you to get her back... Shafiq... Roll over... Play dead... Or should i say Be dead...

Sorry

2010-01-06T23:09:00.002+08:00

Its been quite awhile since my last post... Its been what? A few months ago? Oh well... I must have been rather busy... Going Indonesia... Then Malaysia... Holidays are kinda enjoyable while it lasted... But now its over... Back to school... Boring same routine over and over again... That's some of the reasons why i didn't blog for quite some time... Other reasons are simply... Things are getting too personal... Seems like the older you get, the more personal things would get... And more privacy is necessarily enforced... Starting from today, i'm officially alone again... I guess i will be till i change my attitude i give to people... Especially her... And yea... I am withdrawing myself again... From her... I guess i'll just be a burden to her cause i know i'm kinda irritating... And i'm somehow impatient... When can i evolve into someone who is not bothered about waiting? Having superb level of patience... I'm the one who still needs more learning... A new year... A new chapter... Hopefully i will find what i need to do the necessary changes and such... And you. . . I'm sorry but i guess i just have to do this... To me, it seems like a better option... I just care too much about everything rather than to care about something... I know you all will be confused about the previous line but i think i'm the only one who understands... You seemed so perfect... Who am i to you... Probably nothing at all... I'm just a friend you met somewhere... And i couldn't match up to your standard... I'm such a lousy guy... A loser... A lame loser... and i'm invisible... Don't forget that...

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Crying doesn't change anything but why am i doing so?

No Change . . .

2009-11-04T20:45:00.002+08:00

I feel like i wanna die right now... Seriously... My life seems to be useless from this point on... People will never understand what it feels like to be me... People will never understand what its like to be going through what i am right now... Just had a little quarrel with my dad... And its about me... Seems like nothing at all... But seriously irritating... He doesn't really understand what is the real deal all about... He just keep emphasizing his point which is like the totally 100% sure correct when it is not... Come on man... I read every single article about what i'm having... His point really won't make me any better... But actually will make it worse... I know i'm a very big disappointment to him arh... Because i can't be a great person who will bring glory for the family or something like that... Things has changed... I'm not going to be an amazing son anymore... I can't follow in his footsteps thats for sure... I can only rely on academics... Which i'm not even good at... I can't do much of a physical activities because of what i'm going through... It really hurts... My heart that is... Upon knowing such things... Life is seriously unfair for me... I might be looking cheerful outside... Its because i don't really want you people to worry about me... Oh well... If he wants to be disappointed with me forever also i don't care... I know its not my fault... I didn't really ask for this to happen... I can still be great... But not as before... My moral has gone down the drain... My self esteem is lost... Just like a fifty storey building collapsing... And now i'm rebuilding it... Brick by brick... Bit by bit... It won't be that early to be finished but perseverance is what i need the most... Till then... Cherios...

How My Life Is Doing

2009-10-21T18:17:00.002+08:00

Borned on october 15 1992, i sound like a normal baby... But in fact i was in my mum's womb for 10 months... When i came out, i didn't cry like normal baby would do... I was a stoner... Everybody was scared that i wasn't alive... Doctors did whatever they could... And i started to cry... There, marks a new beginning for me... Named Shafiq... I grew up... Not knowing what the future holds... Every second, every minute, every hour, every day, every month, every year, i just keep learning and learning... From nothing to something... From Crawling to Walking... My mum and dad would really take good care of me... Never letting anything harm me... Protecting me always... Then soon after i was able to understand things, i was taught how to be independent... Do things on my own... Like how normal boys would... Many facts about myself was discovered... As time passes by... These facts seems to get bad and nasty... But i pushed on... I still had alot to understand about myself... Sacrificed some of my time to physical activities... Grew abit bigger... My mind began to receive words slower... But i am able to react like normal people... Because i was kinda slow, i didn't really notice about my surrounding... Innocently moving around... People took advantage of me... Well... Life has to go on... Lessons were learnt... And i was on par with people who used to bully me... I really appreciate my parents for teaching me how to be independent... If not, i still wouldn't survive the emotional sufferings i had... Till now, i don't really have any friends who could really stay with me through thick and thin... Most of them just come and go... but i don't mind... Recently i went for a medical check up... Almost All the stations i did okay... All was well.. For that moment i thought... Thats when today i had the bad news told... I did expected it to come... But its still kinda surprising... When all was gonna be fine, this had to come in place... Just when you thought your life was going through steadily, the nasty facts about yourself had to block you from going far... The body which you had build... The structure in which you had designed it to be... Has just failed you... And just when you think that that nasty fact of yours will be invisible, it has just shown itself... I just see my future getting darker than it used to be... Its fading away... And all of it that i have dreamt of will be nothing but merely be a dream... So how is this going to be? How is my life gonna continue from here on? I know that life is unfair... But i didn't expect it to be this bad... I'm not gonna be considered as physically fit anymore... Even if i could do hundreds of push ups... Twenty over pull ups... Get 8 mins for 2.4km... A single medical test would just land me in the waste basket... I'm not academically good as i used to be... Thats why ite is the place i study now... But then again... True Courage is to move on without losing yourself in spite of all the difficulty and dishonor...You'll never leave where you are until you decide where you'd rather be... Trying to instill a positive mindset to get me going... I should let Faith decide... Let Fate bring me there... And just Hope for the best... Cherios. . .

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Life Just Keeps On Getting Better And Better,

In A Sarcastic Way That Is. . .

I Wanna Be A Rescue Swimmer!

2009-10-01T09:21:00.002+08:00

I Want . . .

2009-09-11T17:47:00.002+08:00

PC USB Game Controller

Pentium 4 Processing Chip

2Gb RAM

17" LCD Monitor

10M LAN Cable

Keyboard

Mouse

160Gb Hard Disk

High Definition Speakers

USB Extension

Creative Sound Blaster X-Fi Sound Card

Nvidia Gforce Graphic Card

DVD-RW Optical Drive

New Intel Quad Comp

Electric Guitar

Bass Guitar

Canondale Mountain Bike

Blue Straight Cut Jeans

Shirts

Suzuki DRZ

Honda Super Four

Slippers

Basic Diver Course

Basic Airborne Course

Shoes

Home Theater

More Spongebob Collectibles

New Webcam

1Tb External Hard Drive

Upgrade My PSP Custom Firmware

Another Bottle Of Escada Pacific Paradise

Meet Up With My Kindergarten Friends

Cadet Liutenant (C/LTA)

Go Poly No Matter What

More Friends

Girlfriend?

Shafiq Shis Shuper Shired!

2009-09-07T21:35:00.002+08:00

Woah! Unexpectedly called down for Senior Spec Course... I didn't plan to agree cause i had Multimedia Essential exam on monday... Which is today... But i didn't have any plans for the weekends so why not... It was kinda great... Didn't had much of a problem with my section... Same like ADC... Made some new friends with cadets and even cadet officers which i didn't see before... BUT I DIDN'T GET TO PUT ON THE LANYARD FOR THEM. . . Sadded... But i hope they understand... Told them that i got an exam to go for... SAHORR SAHORR... Random? Yes it was... Hahax... So thats kinda summarize senior spec...

Today's exam. . . Hmm... I book out from camp ard 8.30am... Took the train to Jurong East... Boarded 334... When i reached somewhere near Singtel bus stop... I look at the other side, saw 198, and my classmates were inside, heading to school while i'm heading home to change... <> Reached examination hall... It was full of people... Dusty table... Papers were already on the table... Put my fone on my feet and played around... Start of exam... Did it in 15 mins... Slept for 1hr 15mins...

I'm hating my computer... Msn is useless already don't know why... Tried disabling NIC and enabling but not working... Reinstall the TCP/IP also the same... Is only hotmail and msn not working or whuattt??

Scratch

2009-08-29T14:48:00.001+08:00

My finger had a long scratch all the way to my knuckle... Blood is dripping... blopblopblop... Its not that big but bloody hell... Heheh...

LycanthropyFiq[=

2009-08-27T23:00:00.004+08:00

The pic on top was my first game and the pic below is the second game...

I won[=

So happy sia[=

Fought with: Jerrald[=

Whats Wrong With Me?

2009-08-24T23:17:00.002+08:00

Ever since i start fasting, i've been eating so little... Much lesser than the usual... Its super weird... After a whole day not eating, break fast not eating much... First day was only a few pieces of lontong... Second day a bowl of porridge... Today only a bowl of macaroni soup... I don't know what has gotten into me... A few days ago my weight was 71kg... Now, just measured, 59kg... I'm getting weaker as days passes by... I'm still sick but this is kinda drastic don't you think... Like someone said to me... I'm not sick to that extend but just trying to adapt... To me... I'm sick and its getting worse... I can adapt to changes in a rapid speed if i want to but the more i try right now, it changed from bad to worst... All i can do now is just relax my mind and hope for the better... And if it gets better, i'll be thankful... But if it doesn't, pray for me that i get better...

On and Off... Off and On... Fickle as i'll always be... But true in the heart i am...

"Have you ever had this kind of feeling, you care about a person so much but you wouldn't wanna get into a relationship although you wanted to because you scared that you will lose the person through that path plus the fear of rejection just overwhelms you but through it all and no matter what, you just wanna be as close as you can be with the person?"

Fickle? There's a bit of it... Over possessive? I think there is... Selfish? Serious about this? If i'm given the chance, i'll prove it with the best out of my heart... But... Dream On Fiq... Lack of confidence? HELL YES! I think about how the other feels... Kalau tak ader jodoh aper nk buat kan...

"Mungkin cinta saya tidak seagung cinta Nabi Muhammad pada Siti Khatijah, atau tidak sehebat cinta Zulaika pada Nabi Yusof... Tapi apa yang saya tahu, saya perlukan awak dalam hidup saya..."

Till then... Cherios[=

Great News!

2009-08-19T17:15:00.002+08:00

I am feeling super stressed out right now... Problems after problems... Why can't my life be simple and straight forward... I don't have the slightest clue or whatsoever why this must happen... I'm already not feeling that well... My headache is killing my brain cells... The fever is playing on and off... Itchiness in my throat is drying me out... The weird gastric is prying my stomach open... Then came someone... I told that someone already i'm not in the mood to talk about something... But the the person keep insisting that we do... i can't take it anymore... Its kinda irritating you know... For once could you please understand the situation and think... I mean really think... Think twice... Think Thrice... You can't just follow what your heart desire that is scolding without seeing the matter up close... I'm tired to talk already... I'm not gonna do anything about it... To that someone, Please Move On... I'm Turning Invisible... When you think the problems going to settle down a little bit, there comes another one... I came to school hoping that everything would be as per normal... abit late i was... Entered the class... Shafiq, You've been debarred from taking the final theory exams for both modules... Ahuh. . . GREAT! Just as i thought i WAS gonna reach the top student level... DEBARRED... WHAT THE F**K IS THIS?? Reason was attendance was low... Hey! I do have letters for most of it... MC... Letter of Absence... What more do they want? Why can't they think before anyhow debar people? If they count only attendance, Whats the use? What if students come to school just for attendance and not study? Isn't that stupid... From what i know of, school debar students when they don't attend school at a regular basis AND not doing well for their modules... This is because they don't wanna drop the standards of the average scores throughout the whole course... I was gonna be the F**King Top student... now I can DREAM!

Maybe . . .

2009-08-18T17:59:00.002+08:00

MAYBE. . .

Maybe. . we were supposed to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that, when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

Maybe . . . it is true that we don't know what we have until we lose it, but it is also true that we don't know what we have been missing until it arrives.

Maybe . . . the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past;after all, you can't go on successfully in life until you let go of your past mistakes, failures and heartaches.

Maybe . . you should hope for enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, and enough hope to make you happy.

Maybe . . . the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Maybe . . . the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

Maybe . . . happiness waits for all those who cry, all those who hurt, all those who have searched, and all those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of all the people who have touched their lives.

May be . . you should do something nice for someone every single day, even if it is simply to leave them alone.

Maybe . . . there are moments in life when you miss someone -- a parent, a spouse, a friend, a child -- so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real, so that once they are around you appreciate them more.

Maybe … giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart; but, if it doesn't, be content that it grew in yours.

Maybe . . . you should dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you dream of, and want to do.

"Life is only travelled ONCE; Today’s MOMENT becomes Tomorrow’s MEMORY.Enjoy every moment, good or bad, because the GIFT of LIFE is LIFE itself…."

Kinda felt like being slapped and awaken? I Did. . .

Oh Well...

2009-08-14T22:49:00.002+08:00

Everything is falling apart... Can't do anything much... Just have to live with myself... No matter where i go... No matter what i do... Nothing ever goes right... Its useless... I don't wanna bother anybody... I don't wanna be a parasite... Independence is what i have to learn... Maybe this is how i have to live my life... So be it... I'm not really blaming you people... but everyone just have their own schedule... Have their own problems... although i'm the one who always help people, the one giving advices, i myself is going down and under... I don't need any distractions or any help of all sorts... I'm cutting all communications in the mean while... I need to regain my strength... Find my lost soul... Redirect my concentration... Change my mindset... Alter my personality... I'm really not myself anymore... Please... For now, don't find me... I'm going away... It might take quite some time before i can stand on my feet again... Till then... Goodbye...

Great Day

2009-08-13T18:16:00.002+08:00

Thursday's timetable is the best of all! 10am to 12noon... Good or what... but the lesson? Just endure the lecture can already... Its not that bad... Still learn something... But the class can get a little bit rowdy and noisy... Teacher ended the lesson early... so walked slowly to the bus stop... Waited around 15 mins... There comes 198... Boarded and plugged my ear... Then i reach a bus stop... I saw someone... Someone who i have not talked to for quite a long time... Smsed her... Then suddenly had the idea of going JP... Okay sure why not... Ate lunch... Catch up with what we've been missing... Sent her home... She really made my day a pleasant one... Thanks Girl[=

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Its been a long time ever since i felt like that...

You seemed so perfect in my eyes...

Is it infactuation?

Is it real?

I just don't wanna spoil it again...

Dear Bestfriend. . .

meMeME

2009-08-12T14:44:00.007+08:00

This is all me[=
Just one person can look so different everytime when taking pics... Anyways, keep the comments to yourself yarh... Actually i got nothing in mind to post into the blog... I don't know why but i felt like i lost my writing skills... My english getting weaker... Malay? Don't even talk about it... Hancur habis habisan... Rojak mau lebih teh halia satu... I'll try to blog atleast once per week... Andd... Many things had happened BUT its kinda private and confidential... So... Till next time![=

hmmm

2009-07-09T01:07:00.002+08:00

Dead blog cause the person blogging was caught up with a whole lot of stuff... sorry guys and girls...

Never thought that things would get so complicated than it has ever was... why am i suddenly being brought up into the explanation?? Oh well... problem loves me... what else can i do... shouldn't have carried on when i had the chance... now that my name has been mentioned... whatever happens just let it happen yarh... one after another... sembarang arh sembarang...

End of Asian Youth Games... finally... i'm super tired already... really... Swissotel and Pan Pacific was nice though... slept like a baby...

Summary

2009-05-17T12:52:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not updating for quite a long time although i have time to... i don't know why but everytime i have the urge to blog, upon reaching the computer, what to write? Haiyo... Nevermind... i will sum up of what i did this week...

Monday 11/5

Today is boring... my first class which is from 12 to 3 is cancelled... so just went to the class which is from 3 to 5... boring... nothing much happened...

Tuesday 12/5

I supposed to go for PE but i didn't... lazy... i didn't wanna get sticky... so i went to school with a long sleeve shirt which looks like my ITE uniform and my black pants and my hush puppy boots... so formal eyy... hahax... when the teacher ask why i not joining for PE, i said i hurt my knee... thats one way of escaping PE... after PE was my Computer Maintainance Operating System class... i half like half hate the class... the lecturers everytime complain about every single thing... the best thing was they said my class was the worst among the 4 IT classes... great... why can't i be in a decent class... since sec 1 i have been in a worst class... till sec 4 i thought it was gonna be the last worst class i will be in... ITE also the worst class... Haiyo! Just my luck... and there was one point in class that a few of the computers were hacked... and the first happened to a classmate of mine sitting next to me... and his reaction was priceless... he almost drop from his chair... because the hacker moved the cursor, bring it to notepad, writting Hey boy are you playing warcraft! Hahax... after that he ran around the class shouting help my computer is being hacked! Help me! Cherrrrr! Hahax!

After that class, i have a school excursion to NLB... near bugis there... it was super boring i tell you people... i only can stay awake because the view was super nice... its held at the 16 floor which is so open and can see flyer and many other buildings... it was from 2 to 5... after the boring trip, i went to Jurong Point meet my Ncc friends... then went to Vivo with my family... reach home at 11pm...

Wednesday 13/5

Today is super draggy... had class from 8am to 6pm... and nothing interesting happened today... after class, i went to the hall to play sepak takraw till 9pm... then home...

Thursday 14/5

Class was from 10am to 12 noon... Lecturer ended class at 11.45... but he didn't let us go... must pick up rubbish... but what the hell... i just ran out with some of the people... and its was great... he didn't mark our attendance... that is why i half like half hate the class... went to imm after that...and home after that...

Friday 15/5

Class was from 8 to 11... but our class mentor wanted to hold us back because of the bad attitude we all have... and i was the first to be lectured... because i wanted to cabot class early for an event... i had Sepak Takraw Inter Regu competition... kinda boring and slow... i don't understand the sequence at all... the first game played my regu won... then the second one we lost... because we fighting against the captain's regu... if we were to win that, i tell you my name not shafiq anymore... hahax... then go into the losing pool... third game lost but a few points... got one person in the regu play like lazy to play... what the ff... so pissed... then when i missed a few hits, he want to show attitude... nevermind lah.. end of day...

Saturday 16/5

Hmm... woke up late... then went swimming at Choa Chu Kang... bathed around 5... ate at Bukit Batok area... since its a saturday i said lets go somewhere and go home late... ended up we're at Pasir Ris playground area... then went to Changi village to buy drinks... and sat at the playground area...

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I just don't know what to make up of it...

It will never be decided...

Infactuation i guess...

Patience is key to all of it...

Home Sweet Home!

2009-05-04T19:12:00.009+08:00

I was too tired to blog yesterday... i didn't have enough sleep during the 2 nights in KL... the aircon was set to 5 degrees... how can i sleep when i'm shivering all over... hmm... lets start from friday...

Friday 1/5
Woke up at four!! Starting already wake up damn early... last minute packing as usual... set off from home around 5.30am... this trip is actually not a holiday... its under my dad's organization... my dad is in the Warrant Officer Recreational Club... They are having a friendly soccer match with two different teams... continuing from where we set off... the schedule says we're suppose to gather at Gelang Patah r&r at 7... my family arrived a "little" bit early... about 6.15am... lepak minum kopi pagi pagi... almost everyone arrived on time... some of my dad's colleagues were late because they were stuck at the causeway jam... so following the schedule, my dad and few of his colleagues were told to go off first and wait at the next pitstop, Restoran Jejantas Ayer Keroh... so there we go... ZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZ (sorry i slept during the journey. nothing to say)...

Reached there in two hours... i think... i didn't take notice of the time... the moment i went out of the car i went to the toilet... why? Wipe off my drool! Nahh... it wasn't that bad... just needed to wash my sleepy face... ate at the coffee shop... left for KL at 12.15... ZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZ (again!)

Two hours later... we are now in the city called Kuala bear... Oops... Kuala Lumpur i mean... it took my dad 20 mins to find the exact location of the hotel... its so confusing... the hotel was kinda nice... thats only the outside... wait till you see inside... better! What i was so happy was. . . bath tub! Hahax! Well... i like to pamper myself once in a while... but not at that time of course... there's a match going on at 4.30pm... i just change from jeans to short pants... then we went to the lobby... waited for the bus... i was quite shock when i saw my primary school friendS... their daddy are also in the club! Wow... its been 4 years since i last saw then... although they are my juniors... had a little chat... till the bus came... ZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZ (once again i apologise)

When i woke up from sleep, the first thing i saw wassss... the soccer field... and my reaction was... WTF... its like somewhere in the middle of the jungle... not that nice but atleast the lines were clear... hahax... lucky i wasn't the one playing... the warrant officers are... i don't really like to watch soccer... so i wore my boots and played with one of my friend at the side of the field... after the game, we all went back to the hotel... my family, as usual, find food at the warong... then go back hotel... i let everyone bathe first... i watch underworld... after that was starsky and hutch... i bath after everyone and it was one and a half hours... incredible! Hahax! Hmm... it was about 12.45 when i finished bathing... and what was on the tv screen... Harry potter and the order of the phoenix... what about the others... everybody was like shot down... watch it alone... dragg and slept at 4 am...
Saturday 2/5
Woke up at 7am! Power or waddd... went for buffet breakfast... eat and eat and eat...

After eating, we got all the time till 4 to ourself... we rested in the room for awhile... changed to tights and. . . went swimming! Where else to go... only me and both my bros went swimming at first... my mum and dad just accompanied... then a few mins later came one of my dad's colleague with his son and daughter... and its like a few mins interval came another... until my friends also came... one of the boys got small soccer ball... and there were alot of children... so we played captain ball in the water... so funn! Played till 3...

Then went for another soccer match... this time the place was better... played at the side like yesterday... its the same series of activities... except that the setting is different... then after the match we went in search of. . . FOOD! And then we walk around to times square... walk and walk and walk... then went back hotel... waited for everyone to bathe... then my turn! Hahax... then sleep plus shivering...

Then the next day i lazy to blog... tired already... i maybe talk abt it tmr or not at all...

Dejavu

2009-04-30T22:57:00.002+08:00

I hate the situation i am in mann... why must this situation happen again? Only that its two different people... why? Why? WHY? Some have gave me their opinions... but i really don't know what to do... caught in the middle yet again... wtf... F! When i'm looking for one, nobody appears... when i least expected it, there they come... i just don't wanna make the wrong decision... again... i did that a year ago... and it turns out so. . . It hurts... choosing is so not my personality... but i know... i have to make a decision... and for every decision made, never look back... never regret... i can still remember this line... every choice has its consequences... time is of the essence... soon is too late... now seems so sudden... i... can't... do... it... life so unfair... the unexpected comes when you least expected it... i don't wanna hurt anyone... i ddon't wanna get hurt myself... still thinkin...

I'm going KL tomorrow... don't miss me kay people... i know some of you are thinking yeah right like i would... hahax... anything just hold it till monday... if urgent just send me an email or something... tired already... Cherios...

Low Fuel. . .

2009-04-22T19:35:00.004+08:00

Damn I'm so tired... its been somewhat... two weeks? Since i last blog... well... as you all know... school has already started... my school? ITE Dover... its not what i was expected to go... everybody was shocked with the result which i get... according to what WAS planned FOR me by teachers and my parents... i should be going to polytecnic... guess i failed them... but its not the end... higher nitec is still not bad... people get the wrong perspective towards ITE... its not what they think... where the bad group of students are... not true... its typicality in their mindset... one person from ITE behaving and appearing bad... everybody is... wth... hmm... Firstly... my course, Information Technology, is kinda cool... helps me alot... and... i met a few of my primary school mates... Yusof, Ismail, Rohainiza... hahax... my class is super kecoh... lots of nonsense... teacher is at the front giving lecture... we at the back play counter strike... on the left dota... on the right left4dead... cool or what... seriously... the lessons, for me that is, are quite interesting... but depends on the teacher... some are boring... some are chill outs... for instance... just now i had computer maintainance... i was suppose to do some hardware and software checks... i finished fast so i played last stand at y8.com... it was down to the last 3 zombies to shoot... on of the teacher came... EH EH done your work or not ahhhh... let me check now now... i replied... wait cher wait... two more zombie... isn't that funny... abeh cikgu pon boleh layan... hahax... surely there's more nonsense to come... stay tuned...

Another thing that made me super heavy is MKE... Mini Kayaking Expedition... its was during last weekend... kayak like want to die arh... its been almost 2 years since i last kayak... so my kayaking stamina, meaning arm power, is kinda weak... even though after afew trainings, to me, i still think i didn't meet up to standard... but as they all know, i'm a land cadet officer... to them, my skills, my award and standard of kayaking are acceptable... good enough i guess... it was two days... morning to afternoon... afternoon to evening... from SAF Yatch Club to Pasir ris... and the other way round... from SAFYC to Pasir ris, the distance if i'm not wrong is 15 to 18km... so the whole MKE is around 30 km or so? Thats for each phase... 2 days... 2 phases...

When we all set off on saturday morning, i was kinda excited... its an expedition! So kayak... after one hour... my right shoulder feels heavy, as if its going to drop off... endure... severe headache starts... endure... skin burning... endure... all the way to Pasir ris... once reached, the cadets were dying already... so they drifted faster than they could beach up... there were fishing lines all over the shore... so i positioned myself somewhere there to alert the cadets not to go there... all of a sudden, there were a few mat reps and uncle fuckers shouting... HEY HEY WE ARE FISHING! STUPID OFFICER YOU BLIND IS IT? I gave them a stare... i wore my Ray Ban shades so my face look fiercer than usual... i stare for quite some time... then they sat down keep quite... i couldn't accept such nonsense man... they don't know how tired we are... rilek ony... come shout shout... picking a fight? Your choosing a wrong organization man... me and a few other officers then beach up after everybody has done so... i was angry so i carried my bloody heavy kayak single handedly and slammed it at the sand at the same time staring at them... if this were to happen to you what do you feel... so we all went up... ate lunch... i said to the head coxswain i couldn't continue... it was too tiring... seriously... anyway there is another phase the next day... so he understood and took another guy to replace me... lucky me... once they set off from there to SAFYC, we had to wait for a bus to bring us back... while waiting, we all went to the playground and had our own fun time...

The next day... i decided to take morning shift again... because the afternoon shift was really burning hot... i think i could suffer some severe headache and heatstroke... to be honest, i was the only land coxswain there... Hakim had a bad day during Camp STEEL so he didn't get to kayak... Hazwin MIA... its kinda pressurizing lah... but its great... new friends... this shows that i can be put anywhere and not be lonely! The same thing also... kayak like hell... reach there... eat lunch... somebody take over me after lunch... so i completed MKE! Hahax! Now this is only a lil bit... There's more to come.. which is AKE... Annual Kayaking Expedition... 3d2n... wow... by the time it ends, i'll be flying... sore arms... empty mind... unable to think... guess i'm talking too much... i'll end here... Thank you for your time people...

Clear of mind

2009-04-12T20:48:00.003+08:00

Hey People! NyehNyehFiq is back! Sorry for not updating for such a long time... i'm clearing all the Ncc stuff that i can... so i've been busy... now i'm relaxed already... all done... and i even had a great time today...

Its been a long time since i went repelling with my dad... today was great... seriously... if everyday were to be like this, i would be smiling widely each and everyday... just go around asking everybody can their dad be as active as my dad? My dad is the greatest! Repelling the whole day at Tuas Fire Station... cool or wad! Here's a few pic to show you guys...

Thats Fishball Going Down!

PULL!
Daddy Left Me Right[=
Thats Me Head Down!
Cheese!

So thats some of the pics for today... mummy is not really a photographer but this is okay... as long as my face is clear enough to be seen is good already... really had a good time with my family after so long in Hq... miss being with them for a full day... Alright i gotta go... fingers are tired... Cherios!

Hangover

2009-04-10T22:46:00.001+08:00

Don't feel like blogging...

but yea...

finally i'm home...

Back

2009-03-27T10:34:00.002+08:00

I am never really good in words... for years i've been stumbling in my speech... i don't really know what to talk about... why is it hard for me to talk? I tried to follow ways that people tried as in think on the spot but i can't... my mind goes blank when i'm in that situation... yea... i lack of confidence... i can never be the kind of guy that can talk well... so be it... as long as there's people around me, i'll be happy...

Back from another week of Ncc... sorry for not updating my blog... as you all know i'm following a hectic schedule... hope you all understand... hmm... Elite Adventure Training Team is surely making me tired... but its worth it... althought i'm not given wages or salaries for these camps, i still enjoy working... can see all sorts of nonsense from Part A cadets... can show my contributions and passion towards Ncc... I'm so lucky to have joined Ncc... Its more than a CCA to me... but outsiders don't realize it... these activities have really filled my time... if not, i would be sitting infront of the tv at home producing fats...

When i got back home and check my facebook, i was given a quiz to do by my friend... its about What do my birthday say about me... and this is the result...

October
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

Isn't all so true?

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Was i dreaming that night or did it really happened?

Was it just plain fun or you really mean it?

Millions of question running through my head...

But importantly,

Are You The One?

2009-03-22T14:01:00.002+08:00

You never really know how i felt inside...

Its not easy for me to hide...

Many a times confessions were made...

But most of it left me hitting my head...

I can still remember the day we said hi...

now its really time to say goodbye...

The Song below was previously for you...

Now,

Should be the last i listen to it...

How Did I Fall in Love with You - Backstreet Boys

Remember when,

we never needed each other

The best of friends like

Sister and Brother

We understood,

we'd never be,

Alone

Those days are gone,

and I want you so much

The night is long and

I need your touch

Don't know what to say

I never meant to feel this way

Don't want to be

Alone tonight

What can I do, to make you mine?

Falling so hard so fast this time

What did I say,

what did you do?

How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice

And I start to tremble

Brings back the child that,

I resemble

I cannot pretend,

that we can still be friends

Don't want to be,

Alone tonight

What can I do, to make you mine

Falling so hard so fast this time

What did I say,

what did you do?

How did I fall in love with you?

Oh I want to say this right

And it has to be tonight

Just need you to know,

oh yeah

I don't want to live this life

I don't want to say goodbye

With you I wanna spend

The rest of my life

What can I do, to make you mine

Falling so hard so fast this time

What did I say,

what did you do?

How did I fall in love with you?

What can I do, to make you mine

Falling so hard so fast this time

Everything's changed,

we never knew

How did I fall in love with you?

busy Busy BUSY[=

2009-03-22T11:06:00.002+08:00

Heyy people! Sorry i haven't been posting in these two days that i'm home... lazy plus tired... just came back from Advance Drill Course... Everything hurts but the worst is my throat... Had fever for the entire duration of the course... BUT i know i'm strong... no need to worry... lucky got kaki like me... Kak Aind was so worried bout me... everytime meet at dining hall sure find me first... check my body temp and all... then remind me Adek, taken your medicine? Hahax... Me, as usual, Wait first, later then can... many things happened during the course... bullied by the instructors inside the learning terrace... hahax! Its the worst you people can imagine... i'll elaborate ADC next time...

As for now, i'm going to pack my bag... booking in tonight for Sea Camp FEAST... back in tuesday... Worst than a businessman going for business trip around the world... look at my fone calendar and everyday has a note... Sorry never update much... no time... Cherios!

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Is this thing happening to me suppose to happen?

Is it a good thing or a bad thing?

Lets wait and see...

Blank

2009-03-15T12:54:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i just don't understand people at all... especially her... it makes me feel awkward if i don't talk to her cuz she's the one who wanted to be back as friends... when i talk to her, replies are short or no reply at all... well... if this is what you want, its fine... when i'm seacrhing for you, you ran so far until no form of communication is applicable... when you are lonely, only then you come back... to me... i stood there for 4 years... waited and waited... you come... you go... many a times... yet i'm being so good... so kind... sometimes i wonder... what did i do to get people stepping over my head everytime? My kindness? I'm too kind that people took advantage of me... i didn't fight back when people critisize... i didn't sound off people who make use of me... i'll just keep quiet... let people bully me... but nevermind... its okay... i just don't wanna hurt people... i know that if i let my temper out, somebody is gonna get hurt physically and mentally... so i will remain silent... as a turtle... hide inside my shell... i'm packing my bag... off to Hq again for Advance Drill Course... Till Friday... Thursday is if everything goes smoothly... Toodles...

So Hating It

2009-03-12T21:23:00.002+08:00

DAMN! I am so hating the situation right now... Why must it be like this? What the heck man... I wanted to go for Airborne so much... its the number one course i've been waiting for... and i happened to be busy to go for it... Argh! I hate this so much... then now NDP... no matter trainer or contingent commander, i also wanted to go for it... but i got the same activity that is in the way... which is. . . Annual Kayaking Expedition... must it happen? Must it go this way? why? Why? WHY? So sad... i'm so hating it... maybe its not my luck to go this year... or maybe there might be something bad going to happen if i go... only god knows my path of life... But i know i'll still have time to train... there's always next year... My only highest goal for this year is Basic Diver Course left... I must achieve that for this year... i'm gonna fill up my free time with swimming training... lower my 2.4km timing to 8.30mins... do 50 push ups in one minute... 50 sit ups in one minute... i don't care if my body turns so black and worst than bangla... all i know is that by the end of this year, i wanna be super fit and achieve BDC... i'll be the most happiest boy in this world if i were to achieve that... nothing else matters... my heart is closer to Ncc than what normal guys are chasing for... i told you all that i gave up... what's the good thing about getting heartaches and all sort when you can get something that benefits your life in the long term... correct or not? Betul tak betul? Teo bo? Reminder: Life is unfair... you won't get everything you want unless you are god... Winners never quit, Quitters never win... No pain No Game... It isn't over till its over... expect the unexpected... Never regret what you've done cause its no use... don't cry over spilt milk, Just lick it off the floor... Last was a joke... Hehe...

My Week

2009-03-11T22:10:00.002+08:00

Hey people out there! Finally i'm back home but for tonight only... its been a busy and hectic week... lots of things to do and all... the whole week was pack with. . . NCC! Hahax... well... i'm a commited cadet officer you know... okay... here it goes...

Starting from 2 March Monday!

I had a meeting with my secondary school Principal... i've blogged about it in the previous post...

3 March Tuesday!

I had Part C 100m M16 Live Firing... it was great... 100m shoot but the range that we used was 300m... i had a fun time running up and down the range cuz the detailing sheet was left behind and stuff... it was real rounds... the cadets were shaking already because they are scared... might kill people... but to me... hah... run up and down like it was the computerized one... at first i wore ear plugs... after a while... i got irritated and took it off... the sounds from the rifle was loud but it was okay... for me... after the shoot... need to make declarations of rounds and all... my face wanna bring home empty shells? I might as well bring home one live round... HAHAX! Then need to clean rifle... Damn! Its so dirty that my entire hand was black... full of carbon... so thats about it on that day...

4 March Wednesday!

As usual... i slept late the day before... so i was tired... called down for SAR 21 Trainfire... lucky they're Part C... that was what i thought before it starts... when it first start... everything was okay... as time passes by... they are behaving like Part A... Fuhhh... F them abit... then they behave... teach them... "The new Singapore Assault Rifle 21th Century"... WAAAHH... Like so amazing like that... cadets... what do you expect... it ended around 5pm... me and Hakim decided to stay in camp... the next day got another activity... so we lepak at West District Office... watch movie... play Metal Slug at the laptop until the next morning...

5 March Thursday!

Today was Thai Delegation Visit to Ncc Hq... I was going as a Training Cadre CLT... meaning... Ncc Elite Adventure Training Team... The team was to demonstrate the adventure activities located there... there is Rock Wall, Rappeling Wall, Low Elements, High Elements And Flying Fox... I took charge of Rock Wall... it was fun... Sister Ain was with me... much more fun! Hahax... the whole was playing at the Rock Wall... climbing and belaying... the event ended around 5 to 6pm... then went home...

6 March Friday!

Great! Annual Kayaking Expedition Training... forgot that... me and Hakim met Kak Ain at 12 and all of us head to Khatib Mrt Station... from there, there's a bus bringing us to Upper Seletar Sea Training Centre... USTC as they say it... kayak till 4 plus... then lepak... change shift... ended around 6 plus... clean up and head for Causeway Point... makan and home!

7 March Saturday!

Today was supposed to be my rest day... but i was activated for Freestyle Drill Competition... Great... in a sarcastic way i mean... woke up at 5am... blahblahblah... met Hakim at 6.15am... off to Hq... the whole was slack... my job was to wait at the bus drop off point, check for contraband items and send them to MPH... can sleep arh... the buses come in at a very long interval... so i drank a few tins of grass jelly... event finished at 1pm... went home after that... REST... 5pm go out again... to my aunt's house... got an event... berambos at 7pm... to another cousin's house... for what? For my brother's sake... he is in Ncc now... Sec 1... and my cousin is in the army... so he gave my bro a few of his uniform... he's changing to the new uniform already... so the old one he gave to my bro... same size arh both of them... Medium... for me? Sec 1 till now Small... Power or wadd... but the S is getting tighter... alah... i getting macho wadd... Hehe... lepak at his house till 12 midnight... home it is after that...

8 March Sunday!

Lepak at home... 4.30 pm already out... head for. . . NCC Hq... i book in for Camp FEAST... Hang around... i actually wanted to sign up as platoon commander or something but my name wasn't there due to a technical glitch... so nevermind... to think of it... i am part of the Elite Adventure Team... why not i join them to help the adventure stuff... thats why i book in... nothing much but just admin stuff... so today is done...

9 March Monday!

CAMP FEAST!!! Helped Logistic settle some stuff... by 8.30am was briefing by Training Cadre Warrants... off we go to our stations... thennn... it rained... all diverted to MPH... played a few games... then i booked out with Kak Ain... we went to Ang Mo Kio makan and buy supply for the night... book in at 8pm... lepak till next morning...

10 March Tuesday!

YAY! Today not raining... set up the stations... i was stationed at Rock Wall yet again... belayed till lunch... after lunch was Flying Fox and High Elements... till 5 plus... the cadets were issued their cert and go home... the cadet officers were packing including me... i already wore no.4... then 2Lt Spencer say the next day got SAR21 Trainfire... GOOD JOB SIR! Everybody was thinking of what to do... me and hakim decided to stay another night in Hq... persuaded Wei Hao and yes! Persuaded Izuwan and yup! Persuaded Hazwin and yay! the five of us stayed in...

11 March Wednesday!

Today is SAR21 Trainfire... and thats all... went to Causeway Point eat... home was after that... now here i am!

So you people saw what i did for the whole of last week... wait till you see my calendar... there's more than you think... Tomorrow is Advance Drill Course refresher... Friday might be a relax day or it might not... Saturday is Kayaking the whole day... Sunday Book in... Monday to Thursday Advance Drill Course... How do you think of my current schedule? Fun right... its like my job already... now waiting for school...

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I know there will be no place in your heart for me...

After years of trying, i give up already...

No matter how hard i try, you will always remain just a friend...

I'm in camp!

2009-03-09T03:07:00.002+08:00

Yay! Hey people! I'm updating from my handphone! Cool! I'm having Camp FEAST right now... and yeah... Forgot to tell... I changed my phone already... Thats why i can go internet... okay... Tired already... Small keyboard... Gonna end here... Cheerios!

The previous post was meant for someone... A girl... But i think the wrong girl thought it was to her... And she posted really bad thought about me... GREAT!

Free Time

2009-03-07T16:34:00.002+08:00

I love to listen to music... something to do with people playing an instrument... can't live a day without music... YES! I was searching for some songs... found one.. and this particular song is nice... its a local band... this song somehow relates to some part of my life which i should have done... well... shafiq right... do things without thinking... okay... just listen and focus on the lyrics... the title is Bestfriend... and bestfriend, if you are listening to the Song, this is how i fEel towaRds You... you know who you are... but nobody knows... but its too late to turn back... i already said goodbye... i'll stick to my words...

Bestfriend.mp3 - Juxtapose

Sorry People!

2009-03-05T21:06:00.003+08:00

Hey readers out there! Currently i'm very busy... can't update much... just got back from Ncc Hq after 2 days... gonna be staying in camp for awhile... so sorry if i never update my blog for you people to read... just take care y'all! When i'm free i'll fill my whole blog with just one post kayy!

Tired. . .

2009-03-04T00:05:00.000+08:00

Saat Terakhir - ST 12

Hey Readers!

2009-03-02T19:07:00.002+08:00

Welcome back! Sorry for not blogging at a regular basis... but forget bout that... i still update right... here it goes. . .

28 February!

Happy Birthday mikaH!
As i slept at 3am of this day, i feel so lazy to wake up... but i had to... woke up at seven! Fast Foward to 7.45am... My sis went to work... both my bros went for camp... so left me and my parents... YAY! Full attention! First we went to ICA Building... take my IC! I'm still so pissed off... Who the bloody fucking stupid moronic damn jerky bastard son of a bitch that stole my wallet... if i ever know, he is so dead i tell you people... IC Ezlink and atm card missing... thats one thing... still dare to draw money from my bank account... how the hell did he know my pw... he is so fucking dead if i find out... continuing the day... went to Tekka eat... after that went to my dad's workplace to take a few things... next place was my aunt's... we were there because my aunt requested that dad shave the baby's head... following traditions and formality... done in an hour... Boon Lay queued up after that... there was "kuda kepang" taking place... it was my dad's colleague who invited to come... so we just went there... watch for awhile... thenn go home... waitt... there's more... reached home and got changed... went to some event at a relative's place of mum's side... then go home... this one can relax already... slept around 5am for no reason... seems like alot of activities huh...

1 March!

Woke up at. . .*drum roll please* 5PM!! Fuhh... what a great sleep... my mum got fed up because she tried to wake me up so many times but i didn't bother to do so... lala land was so fun... don't expect me to wake up mummy! Around four she left home to pick up my bros from camp... my sis went for dikir barat competition... left me at home alone peacefully playing at lala land for one hour... as i was saying bout my mum being fed up, she went to my room, switched off the fan and then went out... great! Macam babi panggang! *like roasted pig* Well... woke up... first thing... HUNGRY! Searched for food... No hap... hmm... saw maggi mee... cooked 3 packets... for the first time i ate 3 packets... and finished... usually it was 2... once done switched on comp... stared... mummy came back at 7pm... house was NOT peaceful anymore... two buggers come home already... haiyo... lucky they slept at 8pm... good you know! Watched Bond... news... Unexpected access... Minority report... half way though the movie me and mum met my sis at Teh Tarik to eat... while my dad wanted to watch the movie... when we came back... movie watch him... aperdah! Thats all for my sunday...

2 March!

I had Tea Session with Principal today... PAU session huh guys? Hahax! I already set my alarm to go off at 9am... suddenly someone called to meet at the void deck around 8.15am... what the toot... i quickly wore no.3 then pack my bag... met him then head school... actually the tea session was around 11am... but someone said it was changed to 9... so hurry to school... went around asking at General Office... got to know its at 11.15... greaaaatt...waited and waited... okay its time... went for it... sseriousslyy speaking... the ncc guys must not be invited to attended these kind of things... today was a joke... Hahax! Can't tell you people! Bluek! Thats all folks!

Ncc Forum And Fiesta!

2009-02-28T03:04:00.002+08:00

Just got home! See the time... 3am! Fuhh... but first... lets talk about thursday... had another IMT at SAFTI... ended at 4plus then dinner at JP KFC with 2Lt Spencer, 3Sg Riduwan and some Cadet Officers... went home... surf the net till 1.45am, friday... went out lepak... rode all the way to Pandan Reservoir... then back... it was around 4.45am when we reached the straight road beside the canal... the one straight to JP... me and Hakim were caught by police... screened... and we got off! Hahax! It was damn funny... the whole situation with the police officers was such a joke... WAYANG MAU LEBIH! Got back home safely... HEHEH. . .

Friday!
There IS Ncc training at Jurongville... BUT... once again i'm not attending... today i have Cadet Officer Forum followed by Cadet Officer and Supernumerary Fiesta... Forum was boring and i accidentally slept... WOOPS! After the forum was a "little" reception... the buffet was catered for 200 people but only 43 or so attended... so. . . I had a wonderful lunch! Rest at West District Office for awhile before proceeding to Multi Purpose Hall for the Fiesta... Once at the MPH, i sat at the registration table... there's a lucky draw at the end of the event so when registered, we will get a lanyard with a number attached to it... i didn't know whats the reason but i felt that i had to find 17... found it in a matter of minutes... went to the center and sat with the other Cadet Officers who already registered earlier... ON THE FLOOR! Hahax! But its okay... had lots of fun... the entertainment was great... and the last segment was. . . Lucky Draw! Altogether there were 10 prizes... there goes the 10th... 9th... 8th... 7th... 6th... 5th... 4th... 3rd... and the second prize goes to numberrrrr. . . 17! At first i thought it was 70 as there is such number... so i ask whats the digit... 1...7... looked at my lanyard... smiled... and shouted "MEEE!!"... Heheh! Soo happy... its not every event i'll win in a lucky draw... but i did a few times already... once during an army open house i won myself a pager! At that time yes it was considered a high tech stuff... Hahax! Continuing to the Fiesta... The "show" ended around 9.45pm... after that... PARTY! The lights in the MPH were switched off... smoke rised... disco lights turned on... WOOOHHOO! Dance to the rythm of the music... it was like in a club... smoke... lights... girls... guys... loud music... whole thing ended at 11pm... Dad fetched... so me mum dad sis went to watch a midnight movie... both lil bros were in camp... the four of us watched Valkyrie... mum dad and sis didn't favour the movie much... well... they don't understand much... its too deep into the Nazi politics and stuff... how can they understand... went home after that...

HERE I AM NOW! TIME TO SLEEP! CHERIOS!

Today

2009-02-26T21:57:00.002+08:00

I had IMT today... and thats all for today... I haven't been doin alot of things lately and not using the comp much BUT listening to music all day... and i happened to find a song... a malay song... made by a person with the same name as me! Hahax! So... Just listen... its nice...

Cinta Manusia - Shafiq

NyehNyehFiq[=

2009-02-25T20:41:00.007+08:00

Hey people! Sorry for not blogging these few days... well... there was really nothing much to talk about cuz not much happened... same old things... have you people ever wondered why i always used NyehNyeh or Shafikki as my name? I'll expose the events that led to the kiddy and childish name[=

NyehNyeh

Once upon a time... there were two little children... one was a girl... another was a boy... A Cute One... i meant the boy... the girl was 6 yrs old while the cute adorable chubby boy was 2 yrs old... they were playing at the corridor outside... The boy needed milk so he went inside to grab his sparkling blue bottle... he then went outside carrying the bottle with his mouth... with that, a sound was made... and the same sound was made when he is excited... and the sound is "NyehNyehNyehNyehNyehNyeh"... from that point on, people around him got amazed with the sound made by biting on the pacifier of the milkbottle... and therefore he was called NyehNyeh!

Shafikki

There was a time during secondary three and four that i was appointed as Class Chairman... I thought it was quite a heavy responsibilty as i need to take care all the class admin stuff and so on... I was given the class key so that i could open it up in the morning and lock it at the end of school... when the class needs to move to another room, i have to ensure the class is locked so as things won't get stolen and blahblahblah... it always have to be done during my Pure Geog class and some of my classmate's DNT lesson...its during the same time but both subjects are at different places which is DNT lab and Humans Room... Every pure geog lesson will be boring so i slept... coincidentally the DNT students always forget to take something from the classroom... so this is what they always do... they come to the Humans Room and wait at the door... shouting. . . SHAFIQQQQQ KEYYYYY!!!! So if you all say that very fast... what will you get? Shafikki!

So thats where both of the names which i used originated... Jurongville Secondary School... never really regretted studying there although i badly wanted Singapore Sports School... its a school where it really changes my whole personality and style... its a school which gives me the most opportunity to shine and show what i was capable of... Although some bad things did happened which i'm not gonna tell, chances were given as the trust towards me were still believed... Jurongvillains forever! Hahax! Jvsians of the future! Please don't forget me! Class Chairman 3D07 & 4D08, Class Committee Leaders, NE Ambassador 07, JVSSNCC AUSM 08! And Don't forget this! You're a great Vice-Chair!

And all those are past memories. . .

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I Saw Rainbow Today!

Another Random Song

2009-02-23T22:31:00.002+08:00

unwell (acoustic) - matchbox twenty

All day

Staring at the ceiling

Making friends with shadows on my wall

All night

Hearing voices telling me

That I should get some sleep

Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on I'm feeling like I'm headed for a

Breakdown I don't know why

I'm not crazy,

I'm just a little unwell I know,

right now you can't tell

But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see

A different side of me

I'm not crazy,

I'm just a little impaired I know,

right now you don't care

But soon enough you're gonna think of me

And how I used to be

Talking to myself in public

Dodging glances on the train

I know

I know they've all been talking 'bout me

I can hear them whisper

And it makes me think there must be something wrong

With me

Out of all the hours thinking

Somehow I've lost my mind

I'm not crazy,

I'm just a little unwell

I know, right now you can't tell

But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see

A different side of me

I'm not crazy,

I'm just a little impaired

I know right now you don't care

But soon enough you're gonna think of me

And how I used to be

I been talking in my sleep

Pretty soon they'll come to get me

Yeah, they're taking me away

I'm not crazy,

I'm just a little unwell I know,

right now you can't tell

But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see

A different side of me

I'm not crazy

I'm just a little impaired I know,

right now you don't care

But soon enough you're gonna think of me

And how I used to be

Hey, how I used to be

How I used to be, yeah

Well I'm just a little unwell

Nothing Much

2009-02-22T21:44:00.004+08:00

It isn't easy being me...

My life is so weird...

It has been unfair to me...

Since when life is fair...

I'm lost...

Where's all the "friends" that i have?

When you all have no friends,

one by one come to me...

Ask me to entertain...

When new friends arrive,

push me aside...

What do you people think i am?

Tissue Paper?

Its no surprise if you see me outside walking alone...

Im Just A Kid - Simple Plan

Enough said about Friends...

There's much more to be concerned about than that...

and it is...

Life...

Life is like running...

At the start,

your so hyped up...

Plan your route according to your limit...

Go...

As you slowly get further and further...

Your body gets heavier and heavier...

For some people who wants to achieve success,

they press on...

It will come to a point where your body gets very heavy,

your thigh is numb,

your calf is tight...

At this part, some people might just,

Give Up...

While others,

might still continue WITH,

the positive Mentality...

Mind over Body...

Will Power...

With all that in mind,

you will see that you are on your last stretch of the run...

You know that you're going according to the pace afforded...

But what the heck...

Sprint...

You're reaching in a matter of steps...

Thats when you know if you put in effort to end the run with honour...

And thats when you know if you put in effort to live life to the fullest...

Getting to the end isn't that easy...

Berusaha Dan Kamu Akan Berjaya

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For those who are worried about me,

Especially Kak Aind,

Relax kayy!

I'm always okay no matter what!

Don't worry

Be happy[=

Smiles[=

Cherios![=

Friday!

2009-02-20T23:16:00.003+08:00

There is Ncc today! But i didn't came... wonder how my Part Bs are doing... i trust my platoon sergeants are capable of teaching so not to worry... well... i went for another Ncc training... kayaking training to be exact... the Sea District were preparing for their Annual Kayaking Expedition... Ain told us there might be a shortage of instructors for the training so she asked us to help... the "us" i'm talking about is me, Hakim and Hazwin... all three of us are official 2 star kayakers... so its a no tough job... i got the cert to prove if you all don't believe kayy! Hahax! Then we met Ain at Jurong East Mrt Station around 11.30am if i'm not wrong... boarded the train there and alighted at Sembawang... took a bus... drop somewhere near Nee Soon Camp... it was a long walk to Upper Seletar Reservoir... No Joke people... LONGGG... it is so far, deep in the area... reached around 1pm... lepak around... till 2 as it starts at 2.15... get ready... changed into wet gear... time to KAYAK! The kayak we used was called Bandit... its yellow in colour and somewhat flat... its hard to capsize but still can if you don't know how to operate properly... i'm not used to the kayak... what i usually used was Slalom or Dancer... Slalom is long and sharp at the bow and stern... meaning front and back... its kinda stable to go straight... for the Dancer... its easy to maneuver because its not that flat but the sides are round... i prefer to use it because its light and made of plastic... Slalom is fibreglass and i get itchy after using... so lets get back to the story... Yarh... i kayak for around 3 hours or so... GETTING DARKER! I mean my complexion... well... heck care... as long as i'm not melting or anything then its fine... during the training i get to meet new people like Jason and Tan... they are very cool people... such great friends i've made... everything ended around 7plus together with AAR from OIC and Major Oliver... went dinner with the Sea Cadet Officers at Causeway Point... Then head home... HERE I AM NOW TYPING! Hahax! That's all for today folks!

You finally found yours bro...

I have yet to find mine. . .

Random Song

2009-02-19T18:21:00.005+08:00

Its You - Ryan Cabrera

Another night goes by without sleeping

'Cause I know I won't wake up next to you

Another life goes by without dreaming

And I can't help but think that mine will too

I'm standing before you with this label on my head

I'm pleading before you for you to understand

Baby it's you

When I look up in the sky I see you

Then I turn and close my eyes

It's you

When I'm sitting all alone in my room

Everything reminds me of you

The time is slow and I am sinking

Into a hole blackened with lies

And though I made it myself

You stand watching as my life passes me by

I'm standing before you with this label on my head

I'm pleading before you for you to understand

How much I adore youI'll be there till the end

When everything falls down

Will you hold my hand

Baby it's you

When I look up in the sky I see you

Then I turn and close my eyes

It's you

When I'm sitting all alone in my room

Everything reminds me of you

Baby it's you

When I look up in the sky I see you

Then I turn and close my eyes

It's you

When I'm sitting all alone in my room

Everything reminds me of you

BLOG!

2009-02-18T21:16:00.004+08:00

I haven't been blogging lately... sorry readers! Well... lets get the story started...

Monday!

I had IMT on that day... it stands for Individual Marksmanship Training... i think so... some say its Individual Marksmanship Test... it was at SAFTI... me and some other Cadet Officers were supposed to assemble at Hq and take a mini bus there... but it was a waste of time and fare... so those living near jurong met up at Jurong Point and took a bus there... waited at the drop off point outside pasir laba camp... the shoot ended around 4... took the mini bus out to JP and we walked around for a while... first, there were a total of 7 C/Offrs and 2Lt Spencer... as we walked in, 3 were gone... just like that... as we walked some more another one gone... left me, Hakim Chun Wei and 2Lt Spencer... then, i don't know how we ended up in Pizza Hut... ate a whole lot of pizzaaaa! There was two slices left... i couldn't handle the toughness... I GAVE UP! BOOOO! Actually i could eat some more but i didn't... I'm not that "tamak" kayy! So... thats all about on monday...

Tuesday!

The day before, i lepak till 5.30AM... so i was quite tired... woke up at 12... suddenly Hakim called... he asked if i wake up already or not... hahax! Just in time... today we went out with Ain and Sabi... they wanted to go Queensway to find any shop to do shirt printing... Ain was the one who asked us to come along... Hakim and i had nothing to do today so we agreed... went to Queensway... walked around... then we went to Clark Quay by bus... I Hate Long Bus Rides... it makes me super bored! After getting down, walked around till Marina Square area... had dinner at KFC... then home it is after dinner...

Today!

Me and Hakim went to Queensway... He wanted to buy something and i wanted to buy some shirts... so today there wasn't much happening... just that i had a big hole in my pocket]=

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Only Time Will Tell...

Let Nature Take Its Course...

Total Defence Day

2009-02-15T23:30:00.005+08:00

Today... as you all know obviously... is Total Defence Day... i volunteered to attend an event at the Civilian War Memorial... it was to pay respect to the civilians who were killed during japanese occupation... there were thousands of people who were invited to attend this event... most of them are. . . NCC Cadets! Hahax! There were a few from other UGs but Ncc overwhelmed the entire place... Green no.4... White and Blue no.3... Fuyohh! The event lasted for like two hours or so... there were prayers from quite a number of religions and it ended with three bows... dismissed the cadets... and then left the Cadet Officers and Officers from Ncc... all of us went around taking pics!

West Rules!

Another West Pic

Specialist!
Me and 2LT Spencer

Me and Sabiruna

Actually there's some more pic but its not with me]=

So thats about it for today...

Cherios!

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Farewell. . .

Take care and lead a good life. . .

Valentines Day

2009-02-15T01:15:00.007+08:00

I didn't do much today... woke up at 10.30 am... >>>Fast Forward>>> All done... a pair of shorts, simple tee and shoes... went to Jurong Point to meet some of my fellow Cadet Officers... It was one of them who planned to meet cuz surely most fo us would be lonely and have nothing to do on V Day... so we met up at ard 12 plus... and as usual... punctuality problem... had lunch at Pizza Hut and walked around JP... it was full of jokes... one of my seniors was such a joker... going round the shopping centre making a HAIK SHADOIK prank at people... its an inside joke actually... there was this verrry amusing incident which happened while on the stroll... we were all on the escalator and the same senior joker pulled the escalator handrail... so the steps goes up while the handrail goes down... upon reaching the end, two security guards? I think so, scolded him...

" Asal main-main dengan escalator? Nak rosak kan eh? Kalau orang belakang jatuh macam mana?"

It means Why are you playing the escalator? Want to spoil it? If the people behind fall how? It was so funny cuz the tone that they used were so ?unmanly? Like bapok like that arh... Hahax! After walking around, me and my friend decided to go home cuz we're tired... the day before we lepak till 5am... its great being with them... see... MUST BE NCC...

Once i reached home, my family was going out for dinner... soo... i have to follow... like obviously... Hehe... brought along my grandparents cuz i'm so called treating them for dinner... i had my pay debited exactly on V Day... Cool? Hahax... well... we went to Eunos cuz one of my aunty had a stall there... and there was. . . SATAYYY! EATEATEAT! No wonder i'm gaining unnecessary weight... every bit of it was wiped out by the time the clock strikes 9.30... (my timing is all a rough guess)... my dad thought of relaxing at Marina Barrage but full house... went to West Coast Park instead... rollerskated my fats out... and home i am now...

Some Random Pics

Miss those times...

I really did try everything to be closer to you...

I know your doing so to keep our friendship last forever...

Don't tell...

I know...

Thoughts And Feelings

2009-02-14T04:57:00.005+08:00

Time check: 5.00am

Just got back home...from where? Lepak... i got nothing else to do... told you all my life is such a bore... yesterday was friday and indeed there was ncc... it was promotion ceremony... my part b are promoted to Lance Corporal... Congrats guys! But still... that's the first step in ncc to have something on your sleeves... life in ncc was great during a cadet... i can still remember all those times i had... every cadet has to go through so much to attain a simple rank... for me... i did my best and was given what i deserve... the highest rank achievable in secondary school level... Master Sergeant... its was cooool... from nothing... to that... i have worn all the ranks except 1st sergeant... dangg... Lcp, Cpl , 3sg, 2sg, (1sg), Ssg, MSG... four meaningful years... so far... i have did many things which makes my school, parents and friends proud... won a few competitions... first to go overseas... wore the pretigious ceremonial dress in school... every hardwork has the bonuses right people? If it wasn't for the seniors who recognise me as a potential leader, i wouldn't have rose to this stage... ncc really mould me into someone... someone who is capable of leading and teaching, instilling knowledge to the young ones... I REALLY HATE PEOPLE WHO CRITICIZES NCC... especially some people who i know of... what they say... NCC KENTAL? Everyday training march and march and march... these people got the WRONG concept towards ncc... they don't know what we go through... hell training... leadership courses... really brings out the true potential of a person... other than that... fun adventure trainings... learning survival tips... and on top of that... courses and camps are mixed with people from other schools... connections and bonds are made... thats when it evolves into brotherhood... friends who understands what is going on and stick with us through thick and thin... right Hakim?

Those were the days...

I really can't help but feel guilty and hurt these few days...

No matter how hard i try to shake off that feeling, it keeps getting stronger by the minute...

I keep thinking of you...

I know i'm chasing for something impossible...

Yet...

Quotes

2009-02-12T00:35:00.002+08:00

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

*Sam Keen*

To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

*Heather Cortez*

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart.

*Hellen Keller*

If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go.

*Anonymous*

Weekends

2009-02-09T21:30:00.013+08:00

Oh well... WEEKENDS... as usual... the earliest time to wake up is 2pm... YES! 2pm...

SATURDAY!

I spent half the day lying on the bed... woke up at 3pm... there's a reason for me to wake up late during weekends you know... one reason is that lately, i didn't had enough sleep so i took some of the hours to payback weekday's nap... another is. . . there's only me in the house... everybody is out by 10am... mum went granma's house... dad and sis went to work... bros... religious class... me... ON THE BEDD! HAHAX! So what's the point of waking up early... back to the story... when i woke at 3, do the necessary stuffs... dahdahdah... done... dad called... better get ready... running gears set... he picked me up in 5 min and off we go to Bukit Batok Nature Reserve... that place was the "best"... steep slopes... hundreds of steps... orders from the boss was... Clear 2 circuits of running(from top of the hill to bottom to top = 1 circuit)... Next clear another 2 circuits of climbing(bottom of steps to top to bottom)... it might seem an easy task... but it was challenging... my calf was tight by the time i finished ONE circuit of running... the elevation of the slope was worse than a treadmill's max... once done... steps... if i counted correctly... there were 226 steps up to the top... so imagine up down... do your maths... lucky i have the will to finish it... and faster than him! Hahax! Well... quite a tough old man i have... try asking your daddys to complete that! Can they? Hahax! My dad was tired so i asked him to sit by the steps and rest while i drive the car over to the side... took out a few bottles and we emptied it in no time... after that we went home... end of saturday...

SUNDAY!

Same routine order... woke up at 3 plus... late by a few mins than on saturday... fast forward to 4.30pm... family day out... my sis had been dying to go Marina Barrage... green light by boss... lets go! The place was incredibly awesome... i can't describe it in a proper way... just go there and you'll understand... had a great time with my family there... it could be the next picnic spot... took some pics... Cherios!

Random Thoughts

2009-02-09T00:44:00.002+08:00

Everything is in a mess... why must it end up this way? Could life be anymore better than this? Guess not... just when you thought its great at this moment... the next min... baam... crash and burn... grey clouds ovewhelming... i don't know what to do... i mean... what else can i do? There isn't any solution... seriously... nevermind... only time will tell... nobody knows this... and it stays this way...

Life As It Is

2009-02-06T22:23:00.004+08:00

Eversince my secondary school life ended... my life was such a bore... there was nothing much to do... all i could was go out for swims and some ncc stuffs... it was lucky that i'm a cadet officer... if not, i would be growing fatter by the minute... everyday sitting at home right infront of the computer... i'm not fit as i used to be anymore... few years back, i was always outside on my own... gym... track... those were the days when i WAS an athlete... now... phew... nothing ziltch zero kosong... previously during school days, i used to have many friends... each and every day i would hang out with different people with different attitude... mat reps, hip hopper, ncc guys, girls... now... like i said, nothing... all i have is Hakim... a friend... a brother... love life? Don't talk about it... even worst... it didn't have to turn out this way... many things happened so fast its like an F1 car zoom pass by me... well... all i have to do now is wait for school and prepare for what the future holds... new life... new people... new environment... almost EVERYTHING is new...

Enough bout my present life...

Today is FRIDAY... NCC TRAINING! hahax! Yesterday's a false alarm... today's training is just as normal... my first post in JVSSNCC is Part B Platoon Commander... i don't really know them much cuz last time i'm in charge of not much... well... i'm the AUSM... what do you expect... most the AUSM in other schools laze around... finally after a few trainings, i get to introduce myself PROPERLY and FORMALLY... i made it clear to them that i expect high standards from them and have high expectations from this platoon... its not easy talking to them cuz they are still young... sec 2... not fully matured YET... childish thoughts playful behaviour... i also told them i can be angel and i can be devil... it all depends on them... heaven or hell? Take your pick! Hahax! Had Physical Training today... just what i was waiting for... my unit have such wonderful weaklings... but still... they are the best... training ended around 7... as usual... fellow cadet officers fall in at KFC! Hahax! Had a good time with Shol, Hakim And Wei Hao... laughing all the way till 9pm... full of nonsense... all sorts of things came out... including POKEMON! Hahahax! Imagine a world talking with their names as their language... Sha sha shafiq sha! [=

Walk all the way home and now here i am... blogging...

somehow i wish that i wouldn't have got into this whole mess...

Great Time

2009-02-05T21:43:00.000+08:00

I was working yesterday so nothing much to say bout that... working at Sentosa is great... most of the time is all funny things happening here and there... here is one example... Where can go i see CATlion? it took me quite some time figuring out what it was when actually the thing is MERlion... hahax... so thats some part of it...

TODAY!

I was intending to go swimming cuz i had nothing to do today... so i woke up at 6 am... dahdahdah... all packed and ready to go... called my friend, Hakim... and thenn... he said he didn't had the mood to go... cuz we were tired from yesterday's work... and i also agree... went back to sleep at 7.30 am... i suddenly woke up at one and thought that today there's ncc... so i rushed to find my uniform and stuffs... a few mins later when i msg Hakim, i looked at the calendar... GREAT! It wasn't friday... so i kept my uniform somewhere i can find easily and switch on the comp... i was abt check my email when my mum called if i wanna go eat... so i said okay and went to KFC... i was eating half way my mum left me cuz she had to go home pack some stuff for my dad as he is goin for rock wall climbing practice... after my mum left, my dad called... he asked me if i wanna join for rock wall... WOOHOO! My fav sport... he also ask Hakim to come along... it was at SAFRA Yishun... sooooo far... but its the only place that had a VERY and i mean VERY high rock wall! I had a fun time climbing those cute shaped "rocks"... hahax... i'll stop here cuz i'm tired and if i don't, i'm gonna drag and drag... gtg! Bubye[=

Dawn Of A New Life

2009-02-03T21:27:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl!

Finally I have the time to develop a simple blog after numerous times tried... so keep a look out for more things to come in this blog! Cheers!